To be honest, I went through a lot in my past relationships. Not saying that they weren't good, but...*sighs* It's complicated. For example: My last relationship. Yes, I may say that I don't care for him anymore, but I know that a little part of my heart will always love him, which does make it hard sometimes to be around him, though we stay as good friends. So now, especially after him...I can't seem to find anyone. Not saying that I haven't been trying, because I have, but every time that I get close to someone and see that chance....I back away. I get scared. As of now, I do get scared. I'm scared at this very moment!! I would like to..ya know..date and all that nice shit...but...I can't...I'm afraid....I don't even know what I'm afraid of!! lol I just...
If you can't tell, I'm really confused right now...I can't even think straight enough to write this, but I just had the urge to share shit for some reason.. :/
Yeah...
I CAN'T HANDLE THIS!!!!
yeah...I'm a natural flirty person, but now...as it's just...the way it is right now..I can't!! I just...I have the literal urge to run away...and I feel terrible for feeling this way, but the fact is that I do.
How do I deal with this?
How do I handle it?
How do I feel safe about this??
I guess that's it, right there....I don't feel safe.....
.......I can't......
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